The Beginning!
5.10.19
When I started my blog, one of my goals was to become more independent and to document my progress. However, over the past year, I have encountered a few setbacks. A broken hip, a fractured wrist, seems like I wasn’t able to catch a break. Now that I’m finally gaining my strength back, I’m ready to work! Becoming more independent has always been a major goal of mine for some time now. The lack thereof has always bothered me though. It makes me feel incompetent, as if I haven’t acquired the skills I need to be successful as an adult. I also feel like a bother, especially when I have to ask people to do things like getting food for me or helping with laundry. When I get responses like, “can’t you ask someone else?”, or “I’ll do it later when I feel like it”, I just want to fall apart on the inside. It makes me feel like a little kid instead of an adult. I sometimes would rather go without, just so I won’t have to ask for help.
I truly desire to one day live on my own. Of course my mom is always here for me and will do anything I need, but I don’t want to have to depend on her forever. There are times I wonder if I will ever be able to accomplish this goal. At the beginning of the year, I made a vow to myself that I would do whatever it takes to become more independent, even if that meant starting with small things such as preparing toast for breakfast or warming frozen chicken bites in the microwave for lunch. Since I’m used to people doing things for me, simply pouring myself a glass of juice literally feels like winning the lottery- one less thing I have to ask someone to do for me.
A few weeks ago, I decided to do something a bit more challenging. I decided to bake a cake with as little assistance as possible. I looked up the recipe on my phone and gathered all the ingredients. I was a little nervous at first, but I got the job done! I experienced some difficulty cracking the eggs- almost dropping one on the ground and not beating them against the counter hard enough to actually crack them open, but I got it… eventually. Then I had a bit of a hard time frosting the cake, and had to get a little help with that. In the end, the cake came out great! My mom and grandma said it was awesome. And my daddy ate half of it by himself, so I figured he liked it too, lol.
Seeing the end result made me feel awesome and reassured me that I can do anything I put my mind to. This is only the beginning. Stay tuned because there is definitely more to come!